bittersweet.

today was a combination of the good and the bad. started the day out crappy. felt like morning in hell. of course i teared up again. three or more time this week.. sign of weakness, three too many. and he, he seemed like he didn't even care, really. tried to sound like he did, but it doesn't sound sincere, i don't think so. just need to get off my mind. anyway as the day went on it got better. got to see bro bro :) felt like it's been a while. i miss him hah, sounds so pathetic. was talking to him bout college and he offered to pay my deposit if i end up going to a university. so touching, it's a kinda  big deal for me cos he offered. after this long bittersweet day, i think i'm ready to call it a day.