hate bad days.

why do we care so much when you know someone is mad at you even though you know it's not your fault.. maybe that's why? is it because they shouldn't be mad at you. but why am i so upset? people knew i had commitments and i hate that people think i can easily change those so that their life can be a little bit easier. it may sound mean but i feel like i cant do half the things i need to do because im constantly doing something for someone else. i know they care a lot about me but ugh i feel like my life has to revolve around them. maybe its the other way, maybe im being self centered? i dont know but today i had plans and commitments i needed to do but it was so easy for other people to just be like oh its fine you dont need to. i dont even think im upset so much because now shes mad at me for not being there, im upset because i made a commitment and i failed to follow through with it. i hate that! i hate not being able to follow through with it. its not like i even wanted to go to it, it was the fact that i was supposed to be there, i had to be there. whatever, not that i can do anything about it now.