childlike wildlife

be my thrill..
youu..
i love the way you make me smile
talking to you makes it easy to forget everything
i hate the distance but you make it worth it
it's been awhile since we talked like this and things between us may have changed
but my feelings remain the same

and i wish i knew if you still feel the same way..

sweetest downfall

i hate the fact that you keep me waiting here for nothing but once we do talk, it's like i forget everything.
i hate that you can easily say those three words.. "i miss you" without showing it, and as much as i don't want to believe it, it makes me happy hearing it.
i hate the fact that you can sweet talk your way into almost anything
i hate that i think about you almost daily
i hate that i care
i hate that you don't seem to..
i absolutely hate that i feel this way about you
but i can't hate you.

heart in chains

constantly putting up a tough act and hiding behind the smile
telling people i don't really care but clearly i do.
why do i hide behind this wall that keeps my feelings locked up ?

maybe, it's to prevent others from breaking me..
i've learned through others that people don't always care
having a "significant other" and getting into a relationship is just messy
someone always puts more effort into the relationship compared to the other and that could break it

i constantly tell myself that it's a waste of time and i don't need one.
i'm right, i don't need one but maybe, just maybe, what i want is someone who actually cares enough.
someone who can prove to me that they're worth it.

i've seen it happen too much and (almost) always someone, at least one person will end up getting hurt

so prove to me you're different, prove to me you're worth it and you deserve me

imperfections

Dear Rozelle,

here's a daily mindset for you...


love your body;
your cellulite,
your athletic calves & "thunder thighs",
love your thick, uneven eyebrows,
your stretch marks,
love your big arms (kinda),
your not so flat stomach.

love your ability to make decisions using your head rather than the heart,
love your bluntness and straight to the point comments,
your unflappable personality,
love your (almost) non-existent sense of humor.

love your hard-headedness,
love your analytical mind,
your literal, explicit, and logical way of thinking.

love your dysfunctional and bruised heart,
love your obnoxiously loud laugh,
your awkwardness,
love your indecisiveness.

ETC.


love you.

love your flaws.

FLAWS are admirable.. YOUR flaws are admirable.

it’s what makes you YOU.

senior year

it all went by so fast. in 18 days i will be a high school graduate. this year has been full of fun, stress, emotions, full of changes.. whether good or bad. this year i really found out who my real friends are and who i will actually make an effort to stay in contact with after high school. it's all kinda crazy to think that it'll be over soon. excited to see what life after high school will be.