even the best fall down sometimes

i hate that sometimes i can't help but feel insecure. i know we all have our insecurities and i’m not the only one but i feel like sometimes i let it eat me alive. i’m constantly worrying and cautious of everything i do. i know i don’t show it and i like to let people think that i’m good and nothing’s wrong; smile. but inside, it’s eating me and ruling my thoughts. i don’t wanna be that whiny girl but sometimes i just need someone to talk to. i like to hide behind the smiles. it’s what i do best. truth is, yes, sometimes i feel great and yes, sometimes i just feel like shit. i constantly worry about not being good enough. sometimes i compare myself to other people and think i have nothing to offer. i get into that vulnerable state of mind and it's not good. i just feel like shit. i make myself feel like shit.

long overdue

oh how i've missed blogging.

looking back on my old posts, seems i only really blogged during my all time lows :(

well tonight's kinda just like any other night. nothing special, nothing spectacular. almost two months in to the school year, i still haven't gone home. i miss home and i can't wait to go back next week ! it'll be a nice three day weekend. can't wait to see the fam, bestfraands, & eat good home cooked food, yummm.