in repair

a lot of the time, i put up a tough front. i don’t want people to see my weakness. i act like i don’t care. i act like things don’t bother me. but in reality, i care TOO much. i let things get to me. i don’t forget things. i can’t let things go until it’s settled or confronted, talked about. i can’t just let things go, except it’s hard for me to confront people. so instead i don’t do anything, act like i don’t care. even when it’s eating me up inside because i care THAT much. it’s my weakness. i’m afraid of what people will say or how people will react so i don’t let people know what i think or how i feel. it’s my fault. i feel this way because i put myself in this situation, it’s my stubborn way that i won’t ever change.